I wanted to try my luck this year.

I studied programs, watched movies, and scoured websites dedicated to student exchange programs!.. I have dozens of pinned tabs in my browser with blogs, photos, and any information about America...

I meticulously studied everything I could get my hands on!..

And I got scared..

I was too scared to talk to my parents and tell them about my dream...

At first, I kept putting it off for later.. and later I realized it was the wrong time.. that my parents needed money for other things right now.. and that my plans didn't fit into theirs...

I'm a coward... I'm such a big coward...

I cried at night more than once, blaming myself for my weakness, while at the same time justifying it...

In November, I finally dared to tell my mom about the job and America... it's harder with my dad... I didn't have time... I only came for 2 days.. and I couldn't find the right moment to talk....=((

Now I'm setting a goal that no matter what happens, I will go next year!...

And again, day and night, I think about it, look at photos... read blogs....

America... how I want to see you!!!!!!!!!........